Thorn & Crown Co.

John 10:9
“I am the door; if anyone enters through Me, he will be saved, and will go in and out and find pasture.”

One morning while spending time with the Lord, eyes closed in prayer; all of the sudden, I saw myself as a child (just like the picture above but with half of my hair in a high pony) standing at an open doorway in Heaven. I was literally myself as a child, and I could tell, I just knew I was supposed to jump. To take a “leap of faith”, and there was almost just a “knowing” that the Lord was right behind me. As if He’d just trained me for something and was sending me on my way. For many reasons I’m very hyper vigilant and in tune with the intentions of those around me; so I could sense He was pleased with my capability (listen, I also am not quite sure what that means, I’m just describing what I got🙂). I got the feeling, He was pleased as a proud Father. A very new feeling for me.

So I remember, I just jumped out. No words, just trust, faith, a quick little smile noting, “I got this, Father”—and I lept. Full on trust fall into the Heavens (i guess is where I was). I remember nothing really happened after that. I sat there… Nothing. But, my prayer ended by me suddenly jolting which caused my eyes to open. Kind of like that feeling when you’re falling asleep too fast and your body jolts you awake. Yeah… Except, it was me, as that little girl—I landed inside my real body, in real time… I was in awe, I remember crying; not fully understanding what this meant but I just knew it was a good thing. I haven’t thought much about it until yesterday… July 2nd, 2025.

Matthew 18:3 – “Truly I say to you, unless you are converted and become like children, you will not enter the kingdom of heaven.”

Luke 18:16 – “But Jesus called for them, saying, ‘Permit the children to come to Me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of God belongs to such as these.’”

Psalm 24:7 – “Lift up your heads, O gates, and be lifted up, O ancient doors, that the King of glory may come in!”

Matthew 19:14 – “But Jesus said, ‘Let the little children alone, and do not hinder them from coming to Me; for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these.’”

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The Free Fall:

This represents my wilderness season.

Blind faith.

THE trust fall of trust falls.

Leaving anything and everything I had built/m, worked for and/or attained in my life through myself that was actually hurting me. It was bondage. It was me now being an 8 dimensional block trying to fit into a 3D triangle slot… It just don’t work dude.

One day it all clicked. The patterns, the cycles, the misery, the auto pilot, the… Lack of life. There was no life, in my life. My job was so stressful and I worked so many hours that, that only thing I could feel from the Lord was a MAJOR shaking and a, “give a warning and leave that job. Now. If you walk away from these things and follow me; I will restore everything and more” is exactly what He said, last year. I realized; me living such a BUSY life was hurting my growth, my relationship with the Lord… Working was the 1 and only direct hindrance to my healing. Because… Here’s what people just don’t understand about people like me who’ve lived lives like I have—there is no normal. I don’t know what that means. I was raised to perform. To work… To have skills that would get me to “x” destinations that I was supposed to build upon. but the thing is; when you develop that as a CHILD instead of being a child; welcome. Your autopilot of soothing is now, to work yourself crazy. To cope with emotions with productivity. When you “do”, and produce high quality performance, that = love, affection, etc. Performance in sports, or just “performing” to not show my real emotions, a suppressant autopilot of dissociation. And, if you know you know; if you don’t—be glad.

So, because of this I was spinning my wheels trying to work through trauma. I can’t work 50-60 hours a week and still have the time to calm down enough to get to me emotions. Yes; that’s how severe this is for a lot of us. We don’t know what we feel because we were never even taught that basic human function… I wasn’t comfortable feeling my own emotions. So; my body somatically forced me to.

The Lord pulled me out of the world, quickly. He wanted and wants me (and you) to learn His ways, and then CUT OFF anything that rejects the Holy Spirit. In my season of wilderness with the Lord, I have been isolated, left my job, lost my friends, disagreed with family, lost my relationship, money, cried 31 years worth of tears I was forced to hold in because I was never taught how to regulate my emotions, I was never taught to feel, and then release… It’s as simple as that. But my auto pilot was; caffeine, ignore, avoid, shove my head in any and all work I could cone up with. Deflect from self; distract; avoid.

Toxicity.

But… Sitting with the Lord alone for 7 months now—He has healed me. He restored me. I am a new creation in Christ Jesus. He has transformed my mind. He has cleansed me; my blood, and my bloodline, I mean this… Guys; the Bible should not be read and interpreted with worldly understanding. It’s not a worldly book…

He not only saved me from a mark from the kingdom of darkness; He exposed it, He exposed the ritual that was done. He showed me that this IS “adults/parents/caregivers” They do this because of generational defilement (meaning, they do not know better… Should they? Yes. But you don’t understand what we’re dealing with here… one thing I will notate real quick, until you understand this stuff. Until you understand how vessels are used… Do not judge even the “abuser”… It’s not your job. It is God’s.) passing their children through the fire of molech. It IS that. Dedication of another life for something worldly… It IS that.I lived 31 years not having a clue about this; why my life was so… Hard. Why it felt like I literally had to fight for normalcy. I didn’t see, or remember, because of the craft they do to suppress your memories, to control your reality with fear in whichever way they see fit. Just for you!

He showed me all. Of. It. And much more.

He showed me why I never got the “blood money”.

He showed me why I always felt so off, I felt like something was wrong with ME; I was weird; I was the reason I didn’t fit in with all of the other people that seemingly, so easily lied, twisted, cheated, and steal to get the upper hand. 

That I was the reason for people treating me like little dirt. Like… I needed to do something just for people to provide me kindness… That’s what the enemy does when you’re a target for whatever reason.

The good news is: molechs fire is counterfeit. If you don’t know about counterfeits, I do recommend that you learn. How did I learn? The Lord. Although I was defiled by somebody and or something at one point; He intervened as SOON as I let Him and said, “no, you can’t have this one; she’s mine”.

I received the Spirit of Adoption; yes—a real thing (orphans & widows in the Bible. More than one meaning) where I DO have a Father that loves and cares for me, who teaches me, who stops to comfort me when I cry, who allows me to be so RAWLY myself that I could literally never possibly even think about turning away from Him. I’m serious. If you know me, yes… I understand this is radical. I understand I went from 0 to 100 real quick. But, when the living most high, God shows up for you… And saves your life in more than one way more than once… It kind of changes you. You know? I feel like that’s fair…

And, the TRUTH is, is that everyone will inevitably pass through the Lord’s fire—NO MATTER WHAT. His word says this, too. His fire will either refine you, or consume you to dust. The Lord says in His word that you can choose to buy gold or silver, refined by Him; this is where He finds you physically… Yes, it is a physical process, from within. Or, you get a physical fire to save your soul from the lake of fire… The word says this. We cannot keep our heads buried in the sand as we have. We have to get real about God‘s word. And that outcome of how you allow Him to refine you is completely up to you. He REALLY does allow us free will.

Once you see this—there is absolutely no going back. Once he removes any deaf, dumb, mute and/or blindness from you (spiritually), you understand that there is in fact, a whole other world out there… A world, full of color, love, grace, mercy, everything that we need to thrive. The Lord has already provided it.

It’s the world that taints it…

Revelation 18:4 (Interlinear English)
“And I heard another voice from heaven, saying, ‘Come out of her, My people, so that you will not participate in her sins and receive of her plagues;’”

Jeremiah 51:45 – “Come out of her midst, My people, and each of you save yourselves from the fierce anger of the LORD.”

Isaiah 52:11 – “Depart, depart, go out from there, touch nothing unclean; Go out of the midst of her, purify yourselves, you who carry the vessels of the LORD.”

2 Corinthians 6:17 – “Therefore, come out from their midst and be separate, says the Lord. And do not touch what is unclean; and I will welcome you.”

We have a God who literally came in the flesh as Jesus Christ of Nazareth, walked on this earth and LIVED in human form; He knows what it feels like to have friends, family and people you love betray you, abuse you, spit on you, and kick you while you’re down. HE KNOWS! He wore that crown of thorns with thorns 1-2 inches long on His HEAD, was stuck in the ribs with mixed blood and sweat (meaning behind this), nailed hand and foot to a wooden cross; organs hanging out from such profound lacerations while being mocked at, spit on, He CARRIED the 300lb cross… Blood. All of His blood, drained… Next to 2 criminal to make dang sure He did not exalt Himself about the LOWEST society viewed… “Father, forgive them; for they know NOT what they DO.”

But the serpent of old; little did he know, he stepped right into his own snare. When the serpent possessed these religious and governmental leaders to MURDER Jesus—God said “check mate” and flipped the table. He, our Father; then descended into the deep well which is underneath the deeps of the sea, the belly of the mountains, where the devil is now CHAINED, bound; until judgement day. He took the keys of DEATH—meaning, the devil has no power. Let me repeat: the devil, the ancient serpent of old; has. No. Power. Over. The. Blood. Of. Jesus. Christ. Of. Nazareth.

None. It really is finished. You just have to know it, understand it, believe it and start LIVING like it. 

The coolest part about this vision was, the morning I saw myself standing in the doorway, after I literally jolted “awake” and my eyes opened from being in prayer. I smiled, thought it was super cool and moved on. This was like two months ago…

2 nights ago, I saw something that triggered part 2 of this.

The Lord showed me that… After wilderness , stripping, refining, nurturing, breath, wind, mist, and Living Water; I was landing in His hand… That, the “scary blind faith trust fall” was real… It was in the spirit. For real. I left it all; I didn’t care if I lost EVERYTHING and genuinely was homeless; I knew He’d show up. Seriously. I just KNOW IT.

*side note: when God literally saves your life, it just changes the level of faith. Faith such as, Daniel in the lions den…*

And, I have been free falling; in the wilderness you are tested, tried, quite literally a court case in the Heavens where the devil is the accuser; “he accuses the brethren before God day and night” or something along those lines, he is a LITERAL tattle tale. He is legalistic, he accuses you, gets in your head and tries to get you to CURSE yourself by words, actions, agreements, tricking you into counterfeits of God’s creation, will and blessings…

JESUS CHRIST JUSTIFIES US WHEN WE FOLLOW HIM; HE JUSTIFIES US THROUGH FAITH, AND THE POWER OF HIS BLOOD; BLOTTING OUT THE INIQUITIES OF OUR FATHERS 😭🥹🙌🏼 

THE GOOD NEWS OF CHRIST JESUS!!!!!!!!

You guys… it’s literally done. 

All you need to do is read, pray, and have FAITH that if His word says it, and His word is good, just, and true; He IS a faithful God, so… then it’s possible—HE WILL DO IT IF YOU BELIEVE. I promise.

He rebuked His disciples for 1 thing.

What was it?

Little faith. 

BE AS WISE AS A SERPENT AND AS INNOCENT AS DOVES.

I did not develop this wisdom, understanding, or relationship with the Lord God of hosts by listening to podcasts, seeking visions/dreams/the spiritual realm, I did not NEED TO HAVE anything at all but, my bible and a receiving, humble spirit and heart posture before the Lord God of hosts. I asked Him to turn my heart inside out for Him. To WRING me out of all wickedness within myself. I was truly so miserable and fed up with life; He was either going to save me, or I was giving up.

I did not seek self appointed prophets, or even the modern “church”. I found Him by literally just reading my bible, praying, and LISTENING! He spoon fed me, He literally nurtured me HIMSELF back to His life…

He needed me to step out of the noise of the world—because that’s all it is; to reset me, within Him… He wants the same thing for ALL.

And by the way… The last part of the vision:

I landed from that free falling; right in His hand… 😭🥹😭❤️‍🔥🙌🏼🙏🏼